'Cause I'm Holding Out For That Teenage Feeling...'

I have been listening to a lot of Neko Case lately.  I love her and her music ... she has such a unique quality to her voice.  I'm always amazed how in today's day people like Taylor Swift and Katy Perry are so popular while other more prolific musicians get lost.  While those artists definitely have their place in pop music, I just wish sometimes that music with more meaningful and relatable lyrics stood out more ... but I guess what makes them great is partially being more under the radar.

Anyways, while listening to Neko Case I stumbled upon her song "That Teenage Feeling" and it really grabbed me.  I feel like I can really relate to the lyrics and the tone of the song.  I am not the type of person that is just going to settle for a relationship.  And I'm also the type of person that finds myself getting antsy within a relationship and with a location.  I think what I really want with another person is that feeling you have when you are a teenager, the butterflies in your stomach, the excitement and anticipation of that person's presence and touch - the enthusiasm of firsts and beginnings.  

I wish when we were younger we could have bottled up all those rush of feelings for the future ... because with time and experience it becomes much more difficult to grab onto such emotions and carry them with us into our everyday lives.  So here I am waiting .... waiting as an adult for that teenage feeling to reemerge with someone.  

And I believe it can happen, believe that I still have the capacity for that sensation - somewhere I did store up those feelings.  And unlike the song, I do care if forever never comes.  But I'm optimistic in my search to find him ... with patience and resolve, not settlement and reservation.

"Cause I'm holding out for that teenage feeling
I'm holding out for that teenage feeling"

"That Teenage Feeling"
-Neko Case

Now that we've met
We can only laugh at these regrets
Common as a winter cold
They're telephone poles
They follow each other
One, after another, after another
But now my heart is green as weeds
Grown to outlive their season

And nothing comforts me the same
As my brave friend who says,
"I don't care if forever never comes
'Cause I'm holding out for that teenage feeling
I'm holding out for that teenage feeling"

All the loves we had
All we ever knew
Did they fill me with so many secrets
That keep me from loving you
'Cause it's hard, hard